This is the reason I sow only two zucchini seeds in my
garden each spring, and plant only a few tomato seedlings. This is why in
August I had to make myself ignore the wild blueberries still so copiously
ripening in a field we passed nearly every day. There are only so many ways to
eat zucchini. I’ve never been much good at making tomato sauce. We ran out of
room in the freezer for blueberries – and my children grew tired of my endless,
insurmountable desire to pick berries in the hot sun when there was cool water
just around the bend.
I have a hard time letting the extras go.
So I have been making applesauce and apple crisp and apple
muffins. There is comfort in the scent of warm apples mixed with cinnamon
wafting from the kitchen on a fall day, when the air is crisp but not cold,
when the leaves are changing but have not yet left the trees bare of color,
when the grass still needs mowing but is sometimes crusted with frost in the
morning.
I have tucked apple muffins into lunchboxes this week and
apple sauce into the freezer. We have feasted on apple crisp, spiced and warm
from the oven and topped with melting ice cream. I feel as if I could – and
should – keep processing apples until the pantry and freezer are full. Even then,
the trees this year would still not be emptied of their fruit.
The apple trees around our house, planted in some long ago
time, are a hodgepodge of long-forgotten varieties. There are about three dozen
trees, some scattered without any apparent plan, others in wavering rows still
evident if you look closely enough. I’ve only begun learning how to prune the
trees, tackling a few late last winter, and so they are overgrown, triple the
height of commercial orchard trees, with branches twining every which way. Some
lean awkwardly off-kilter. Others have fallen or split and decayed and been
finished by the chainsaw and added to the woodpile.
The apples growing through the field and in the side yard
are green or red or pale and golden. These are not the large, perfectly formed
apples of a professionally-tended orchard, nor do they hold the unnatural sheen
of polished grocery store fruit. Most of our apples are not great for eating
plain; they have good flavor but chewy skins, or the tartness is too biting.
But they are great for sauce and for baking.
The animals we share this space with seem less picky about
the flavor, the toughness of the skins, the spotted imperfections of our
apples. Game trails wind through the fields, narrow swaths parting the tall,
yellowing grasses and still-blooming asters, leading to the wild creatures’
favorite trees.
One tree, just beyond the back garden and at the edge of the
forest, holds small, yellowish-green apples, not much to look at, and too high
for us to reach. The bears love that tree. When my own children were too small
to climb trees, there was a mother bear eating the windfall apples on the
ground one day while her four cubs clambered around in the tree above her, each
one clinging to a different branch.
Last winter, a gray fox made regular visits to the apple
tree behind the clothesline, her dainty paw prints pressed into the snow all
around the tree’s trunk. Not long ago a porcupine spent the morning in the
branches of the apple tree closest to the house. Days later, another, larger
porcupine settled below the same tree, reaching up casually every few minutes
to grab an apple from a low-hanging branch, then sitting back on his haunches to
enjoy the snack. Moose, deer, raccoons, turkeys: we’ve seen them all noshing on
the apples, from late summer into frozen winter.
No, these apples won’t go to waste. Not with such a wild menagerie
to finish them off. Still, I feel an obligation to do my part to lighten the
trees’ heavy fall burden. I keep picking the apples in small batches, sometimes
with the help of my children, filling coat pockets and shopping bags to carry
these small treasures to the kitchen. We pile them there, like a promise, waiting
until there’s time to fill the house again with the sweet tang of apples
mingling with cinnamon.
Original content by Meghan McCarthy McPhaul, posted to her Blog: Writings From a Full Life. This essay also appears as Meghan's Close to Home column in the September 25, 2015 edition of the Littleton Record.